Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Selfless Vacuum?

So I was re-reading some of these posts and I realized they're really long and quite a bit heavy.  Not to mention they're two months old.  (I can mention it, you probably shouldn't)  So I thought I would put some things down in more raw form as they come to me.  For example, this morning during Sadhana-meditation some stuff occurred to me.  Yogi Bhajan saying (and I can't reference the quote directly but...) basically when you serve others, The Creator serves you.  I understood it as it came to me in meditation, but explaining what I think it is, is a whole other thing.  

Here goes. When you do something self-less, meaning you forget about your own needs and concerns for a moment and serve another, your ego is suppressed.  That creates an imbalance because he whole world is duality-- pairs of opposites and when everything you see is in terms of "us and them," then it's in balance, because that's our world.  When you act in selflessness, a vacuum is created and the divine has no choice but to serve you.  I guess this is what's known as Karma Yoga.  Selfless acts are said to take you out of the wheel of karma, the push-pull of cause and effect.  So when an individual acts without regard to self, all focus is on the other and for that time there's just the one rather than the dual focus of me and mine, theirs and them.  

I think what he meant, and what seemed to come to me this morning is: that vacuum must be filled and since you're focused on another in selflessness, The Creator focuses on you to fill that void or bring nature back into balance.  It's as if helping another is helping yourself since all are one.  So give till it hurts… or rather give until someone else doesn’t hurt anymore.  

Another thing I thought was interesting is the word INDIVIDUAL.  In-Divi-Dual

In=not divi=divisible dual=a duad or pair

So the word individual essentially means (to me) one not divisible by dual(ity) or perhaps one living in duality?  

The dictionary has an interesting take on it: I always thought you weren’t supposed to use the actual word in its definition.  At least that's what I was taught.  Anyway you can see for yourself but the dictionary pretty much defines individual as person or personality set apart from society or a group.  I think it actually has much more power and meaning than that.  I think an individual being is one (indivisible) in duality.  Or One living in duality.  This is definitely hair-splitting, but it's cool when you think about it because everyone wants to be a distinct individual-- especially in this age of reality TV and instant, talentless fame.  

So what does being an individual truly mean?  Different from the rest?  One person just living in a dual world?  One apart from the society?  One in contrast to two?  By virtue of that, when an individual acts selfless, then they drop part of their duality and become one with that which they are serving.  I guess that's a lot of words to say selflessness is like godliness.  Anyway, it gets tricky no matter how you slice it, because if you're standing around stroking your hair, going, "I'm soo selfless." then it's not gonna work.  The trick is to really be truly selfless and that takes a lot of work because there are greater and greater degrees of it.  For example, your mom... and let’s say, Mother Theresa.

Selfishness? Sorry I don't have time to explore that one right now.    

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